Lying on my bed..staring at the
ceiling…quite often my thoughts wander way off… I think of all the things done and
said..what if…had i…if only !!
The more I rewind , the more pain it brings. I change sides, try to shut off my thoughts, close my eyes and try to sleep..the more I try , harder is the push from the ‘other side’.
I struggle all night and it depresses me to the core. Morning is no bright and sunny…the gloom of the night overshadows it. I’m dull, feeling low..moreover I proclaim MY DAY’S SPOILT!!
The more I rewind , the more pain it brings. I change sides, try to shut off my thoughts, close my eyes and try to sleep..the more I try , harder is the push from the ‘other side’.
I struggle all night and it depresses me to the core. Morning is no bright and sunny…the gloom of the night overshadows it. I’m dull, feeling low..moreover I proclaim MY DAY’S SPOILT!!
I regret the ‘overthinking’ done..and so I think again..this time trying to keep a check on the gloom, trying to look at the brighter side. Seriously!! Had it not been for all those wrong choices I made..i would have never realized what ‘being right’ is like. For something is ‘good’ only cause there’s something ‘bad’ to compare with.
Wonder what would a ‘high’ be without a ‘low’. I value relationships cause I’ve learnt the value of people through all good and bad times. Of every instance I’ve been refused help..i’ve learnt to do things myself.
All the struggles I’ve faced, all the hardships, life’s blows..i’ve somehow managed to get through..maybe shaken for a while, but survived!! ‘Survival’ is what matters…isn’t it?
It’s absolutely impossible to forget the past..especially a miserable one, but holding onto it is of no good..it’s deadlier..it keeps pervading the thoughts, fills one with guilt, disgust, skepticism!! It is wiser to move on..push it back to where it belongs…the bygones!!
I’ve realised..sometimes when efforts
fail..promises falter..hopes shatter..it’s just comforting to watch the sun go
down cause you know it’s going to rise again tomorrow . If life’s is a forked
way and you’re still not certain on the choices made…sometimes it’s just good enough
to move with the flow and let be.. Sometimes it’s ok to believe that things
happen for a reason..i am reminded of a song here..it goes
I believe that somewhere in the darkest
night , a candle glows..
I believe that somewhere if I go astray,
someone will come to show the way!!
I believe..
I believe..
Believe me …it’s good to be a believer…trust me..it’s worth that!!
- By Shikhakrati Negi (Guest Writer)
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You described exactly how I feel.. :)